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I’ve been thinking about my Sanity List post from a
couple of years ago; I’ve needed to remember what kinds of
things I like in order to remember who I am, and that list came to mind. Now
that I’m two years wiser, it’s kinda funny reading back over the four ideas I
came up with (refreshing my French, learning the guitar, exercising and getting
my motorbike license). I gave up on the bike license idea not long after I
considered it seriously; every time I made a silly decision while driving the
car I’d tell myself, That could have killed you if you were on a motorbike, and
the plan kept notching further from “sanity-restoring” towards “I don’t want
Moses to grow up without a mother,” so I ditched it. As for the guitar, I
obviously don’t want to learn it; if I did, I’d have done it by now. Maybe
someday I’ll want to, and then I can. Until then, learning the guitar is off
the list too.
The French thing did mean a trip to Adelaide back in 2012, which
was very cool, and the Michel Thomas CDs truly are as wonderful as my sister
told me they would be – we kept them in the car, and I was astonished to see
Alan go from zero to alright French within the space of a couple of road trips;
if he’s ever in France and wondering (as one may) what the social and economic
situation there is at that moment, he’s now able to ask. It was also nice to be
the one who knew most of the answers for a change, and to discover how much I
remembered after such a long break from practising the language. Since thinking
about what I wrote in that post I’ve brought the CDs out again to listen to and
talk along with while getting lunch for me and Hazel, so maybe refreshing my
French can half stay on my new list.
I think I wanted to want to do most of the
things on the original list more than I actually wanted to do them, which is
why I went on with life doing almost none of them, and doing, instead, the
things that should have been on the original list, like blogging. My new list is made up of things I’ve noticed I’m already
enjoying, and therefore want to be proactive about keeping up, rather than
things I think the imaginary me would probably love one day possibly maybe.
1. Blogging
I wouldn’t do it if I didn’t like it. Apparently this
is how I roll.
2. Exercise
Exercise is still on my new list. I like going to the
gym, when I go to the gym (look, the only reason I haven’t been for the last two
weeks is because I felt like I was getting a cold, and then I did get a cold,
and then I was recovering from having a cold, and now I’m recovering from
recovering from having a cold, okay? I‘M LOOKING AFTER MYSELF). A couple of
instructors have thanked me for smiling so much during their classes, and I’ve
left them thinking I’m just a happy and encouraging person rather than someone
who smiles whenever she feels awkward and stupid, which, when I’m at the gym, just
happens to be always. So I will go back to the gym, now that I’m feeling much
better (thanks for asking).
3. Watching movies
and/or TV shows
Another tank-filler for me seems to be watching a good
movie or TV show on a regular basis. I’ve seen lots of movies I’ve really liked over the past few months,
thanks to my friend The Library and also, I’ve realised, my time-pressed-ness:
I’d started to wonder, after giving yet another film a score of 5 out of 5 (it
was Enough Said – I LOVED it),
whether films these days had all become consistently brilliant, but then it
struck me that I was enjoying all of the ones I watched simply because I was only
choosing to watch movies I knew I would very likely enjoy watching. I don’t
have time for crappy movies/TV anymore. (I also don’t have time to watch
awesome movies twice, it turns out.) I love diving into the world of whatever
I’m watching and living someone else’s life with them for a bit. I always
analyse the characters and read myself or family members into the scenes; I was
watching that part in We Bought A Zoo
where the dad says, “Help me!” and the son yells back, “Help me!” and I was like, “Oh my goodness,
this is me and Moses.” Movies are like free therapy for me.
I’ve mostly been watching movies, but
have found that a good TV show can also do the trick; I like that an episode of a show takes
less time than a movie, so I can slot one in to that weird space between doing
other stuff and heading to bed. Alan and I enjoyed watching season one of Time of Our Lives (all but the
melodramatic bits) a few weeks ago. I’m thinking of checking out Rake and also asking my trusty-TV-recommending
friend what that show was she was raving about a little while ago (The Hour? The News? The News Hour?
Something like that…).
So that’s my List for 2014. I don’t even need
to say I’m going to start because I
already have, except for the gym thing, which I will totally go back in a couple of days when it’s clear that I’m completely better. *cough* *cough cough*
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