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I’d been thinking of postponing applying for
Psychology until the June intake next year, so that the majority of the 18 months it takes
to complete the course would fall in 2016, when Mo will be at school and Hazel
could start some kind of daycare. I thought the time would fly by, and I’d
enjoy having the space to read and write and watch things and relax before
June turned up, but the days following my exam went by so slowly and painfully
and boringly that waiting until June looked
impossible, and I started daydreaming about running away so that I wouldn’t
have to feel sad and trapped for a single hour longer.
I approached to The Key-Holder to My Freedom (aka Alan)
and beseeched him to consider making some sacrifices to allow me to not want to
die quite so much, and he said a half yes, and has half taken some steps to
half make it happen. It is half progress, and I’m half relieved by it. I’ve
applied for the course. I’ve no idea if I’ll get in, or, if I do, whether I
will fail miserably at every subject, at which point The Key-Holder to My
Freedom (aka Alan) will roll his eyes and say, possibly only implicitly, “Look
at the sacrifice I made so that you could fail miserably!”
I don’t know what I’ll do then.
Why can't the Key-Holder to your Freedom just grant you regular non-family time with which you can do whatever at your discretion? Does there _have_ to be a reason for you to have such a thing?
ReplyDeleteThe Key-Holder to My Freedom already does grant me regular non-family time with which I can do whatever at my discretion. :) I'm asking him for study to be treated as more than something I do in my spare time, though, which involves him not taking a promotion and also cutting back at work.
DeleteOh, I see ...
DeleteWell, maybe formulate a back-up plan in case you don't get in? (Though I'm sure you will!) There must be something else that will make things sustainable for you so you don't fall into depression again, because that won't be good for the Key-Holder either (let alone you!)