Even though
I’d love to see what other permutations of unbelievably-gorgeous
Alan’s and my genes combined can come up with, and
I have more baby names to use up, and
I still like the idea of having 3 kids, and
babies at 7 months old (anywhere from 4 months old,
really) are the most delightful things ever, and
I feel like I’ve got the whole birthing thing down now,
and
I love Moses and Hazel more than the sweetest clichés...
we’re not having more kids.*
Because
we can’t afford a cleaner, nanny and cook, and
my maternity bras are falling apart, and
I desperately need time away from people (including [especially?!] my
children) in order to function well, and
I don’t enjoy being pregnant, and
my womb has proven fairly fussy about the embryos it
keeps, and I really don’t want to have (or even risk)
another miscarriage, and
I don’t feel like I have the capacity to be the mother
I really want to be (Jesus-y, available, patient, energetic, calm, interesting,
organised) to more than two little people (at the moment even two is pushing
it), and
I don’t feel like I have the capacity to be the grandmother
I really want to be (should my children one day have their own) to the kids of more
than two people, and
I currently spend quite a bit of time with a three-year-old, which keeps things
in perspective when looking at photos of babies (yes, they’re adorable, but in
a few years’ time they will argue with
you even when they know they’re wrong).
So, no more*.
* Unless we accidentally do… (Hello, Child #3! We love
you!! Best surprise ever!!!!)
Haha I love the end of this post :)
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