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You know those times in life when something’s so big
for you that you obsess over it and you google it and you read about it and you
talk about it and it’s all you want
to obsess over/google/read and talk about but you’re aware that others aren’t
quite so keen on the topic as you are and so you just avoid people so that a)
you don’t accidentally spew information at them and make them wish they hadn’t hung
out with you, and b) they don’t bore you with their non-[your obsession] talk?
Right now, that thing for me is sleep. SLEEP. I want to update Facebook every day
with posts about how many hours of sleep I’m (not) getting so that people can
comment sympathetically, but I won’t. I WON’T, DAMMIT.
I will update here, though. Just briefly.
I am EXHAUSTED, man. I haven’t slept for longer than 3
hours in a while. It’s not completely Hazel’s fault; sometimes she’s
sleeping and I could be going to sleep
but she’s snoring and I find it impossible to drift off when there’s a noise
that I know to expect after a predictable interval, like snores – I start
counting the beats between snores and then singing songs that tie in with the
rhythm, and it’s VERY. DISTRACTING.
So Hazel snores and I think, “Ugh, this is
annoying. I should be falling asleep right now, not singing silly snoring songs.” And I toss up whether or not
to poke her and eventually I decide I won’t and then all of the sudden she
stops! Then I think, “Okay, sleep time!”, but I wait and, after some minutes
pass, I start to think, “Argh, she’s not making any noise; what if she just
died?” and I lie there wondering if I should get closer to see if she’s still
breathing and then deciding that I’m being ridiculous and then imagining what I’d do
if she did die and then I have to
tell myself sternly to STOP and just GO TO SLEEP. And then Hazel makes a noise
and I relax and then I sleep. That’s
a full 30 minutes (more, sometimes) I’m missing out on just because of my
stupid, stupid brain.
Speaking of my brain, yesterday I said “brown paper”
instead of “brain power” and accidentally smooshed the names of my children
together (“Hazes”) instead of referring to just one. *YAWN*
I can understand your concern regarding her sudden stop in activity after consistently snoring, as that can be a bad sign that she’s not getting enough air while sleeping. Why not ask her to go get herself checked for that, or if you think she would be uncomfortable with that, you can accompany her and both get checked.
ReplyDeleteMichael
TMJ & Sleep Therapy Center
Thanks for the tip, Michael - I'm pretty sure Hazel would completely disregard me suggesting she go get herself checked for snoring, but that's less because she's uncomfortable with the idea and more because she's a 4-month-old baby. :)
DeleteDid you end up running the idea past her just in case? She may have welcomed your caring intervention - she too may have been concerned.
DeleteHahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! That wins best ever comment on your blog OF ALL TIME!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you saw it! Something else to make you smile: My email saw your "hahaha"ing and thought you were speaking Filipino - google offered to translate it for me! :D
DeleteUm, super hilarious comment from Michael Bennett!!
ReplyDeleteAlso, I hope you've started getting a bit more sleep. I do, do, do empathise. I had four months of the waking-every-two-hours with our little man and it was. The. Worst. I spent hours googling and reading about baby sleep, trying to work out what i could do!! Things may be better now but I'd keep an eye on your own difficulty relaxing - we ended up at sleep school and the psych had one chat with me and diagnosed me with post natal anxiety. I was so keyed up (our bub wouldn't sleep more than 20 mins during the day either!) and had started having panic attacks. Going on anti-anxiety meds (as well as getting some support with establishing better sleep patterns) was an absolute Godsend. Hopefully not necessary in your case, but thought I'd mention it. Just bracing myself to deal with round 2 of newborn-induced sleeplessness from March!
We only had a couple of weeks of the 2-hour cycle, and I was convinced it was going to kill me - a massive high five to you for surviving, and congratulations on bub #2!! I hope he or she is a very sleepy baby to make up for his/her big brother! The great thing about sleep deprivation the second time round is that you know from experience that it won't last forever. :)
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