Over the last couple of months, Mo’s questions have
shifted from “Why?” to “How long is it until…?” Some are easy to answer (“How
long is it until we’re home?”) and others are harder (“How long is it until I finish
my dinner?”). While I try to consider and answer each question well, a few
times now I’ve fallen back on a reply Mr Bull gives Peppa Pig’s family when
they ask how long it will be until a road’s fixed: “It will take as long as
it takes.”
The baby’s due date came and went yesterday. I can
feel my body getting into labour mode, but I’ve given up going to bed thinking,
“THIS COULD BE THE NIGHT!” I’ve worried for my whole pregnancy that she’d
arrive too early (I needed something to stress about once she made it past the
first trimester); now that she’s on time I vacillate between feeling so over
being pregnant that I cry at everything and fight overwhelming urges to punch
the smug-looking woman on my birth book, and feeling a zen, “It will take as long as it takes.”
Mostly the former, though.
Grr. |
I’m finding it easiest to work on the zen thing by
avoiding all people as much as possible (if ONE MORE PERSON looks at me and says, “Still going?!”, I WILL STAB THEM
IN THE FACE WITH A FORK) and distracting
myself with episodes of The West Wing
and Modern Family.
I want to be able
to walk again rather than waddle, and to have enough lap space to cuddle Moses,
and to cut my toenails and shave my legs without having to manoeuvre myself
into positions typical of Cirque du Soleil performances, and to be comfortable.
I want to finally meet
this squishy, squirmy girl, who I never thought I’d get a chance to meet.
It will take as long as it takes.
It will take as long as it takes.
It will take as long as it takes.
*spoiler alert* it has a happy ending! a really boring home birth, a placenta you can't eat, a smiley girl with crazy hair who is insistent on which clothes she wears, whom Mo adores, and every one else is pretty fond of too!
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